Tuesday, January 31, 2017

Caught masturbating by Denise at Seven Springs

I only consider myself an exhibitionist as far as I like to be seen by people who might be into exhibitionism and voyeurism. I try and respect the comfort zones of those who might not want to unexpectedly see a naked person engaged in solo-lovemaking.

Still, I masturbate often enough and in enough places that sometimes I get caught. And I’ve found that most of the time, the reaction of those doing the catching has not been negative. This story takes place at Seven Springs, PA about 17 years ago in a ski condo. I was there with my wife, her friend Denise (not her real name) and about six other people. We were spending a long weekend skiing and hanging out together.

Of my wife’s friends, Denise is a favorite in that she is a very good masturbation fantasy for me. Currently age 51, Denise has long dark-auburn hair, a slender but shapely figure, a very cute ass that fits nicely into ski pants, long legs she often shows off, and sexy, slender feet that are equally as beautiful in summer sandals or sliding bare across the condo floor, and a pretty slender face with a seductive smile. She and I get along really well, very much like brother and sister; it sometimes makes my wife jealous.

One night at the condo, everyone had gone to bed but I was a little restless so I went downstairs while the others were asleep. There was a Harper’s Bazaar magazine on the island counter in the kitchen, and it had a photo spread on the girls in “Sex and the City.”

The girls from “Sex” have long been masturbation favorites of mine. Sexy program with sexy babes! I especially like Sarah Jessica Parker but all of the women on that show have provided me with masturbatory relief at some time. As snow swirled outside near midnight, I found myself alone downstairs in the ski condo with pictures of this lovely foursome spread out before me. I gazed at the pictures of their seductive smiles, their sexy legs, and their pretty feet peeking out from strappy shoes, and began to feel that lovely urged to pleasure myself to their beauty.

All I had on was a t-shirt and underwear. I reached into my underwear and began caressing my penis. Soon, my erection was springing to life. Pleasure was coursing through my penis as I gazed at photo after photo. I was thinking that these photos were shot for a female audience for Harper’s. I wondered if any women were pleasuring themselves to the “Sex” girls. I smiled thinking that surely there were many other men doing the same at that very moment. My penis was now erect, and I started pumping my cock in a slow and steady rhythm. My underwear had dropped down around my ankles and I slipped out of them, entirely. Everyone else was in bed, so I thought.

I heard a noise and looked up. Denise was coming down the stairs which overlooked the entire ground floor of the condo! I froze as she turned and walked into the kitchen! I was behind the island, so I was blocked from her view from the waist down. However, when she was on the stairs she could have looked to her left and down into the kitchen and quite plainly seen what I was doing. At this point, I didn’t think she had.

I quickly pulled my hand away from my throbbing, pleasure-filled cock. Denise walked in, smiled “hi” and asked me what I was doing up. “Came down to get a drink,” I said nervously as I stood there, naked from waist down but pressing myself behind the counter to try and block her view. My cock was throbbing and erect, and pictures of Sarah Jessica, Cynthia, Kristin and Kim were open before me. As she walked to the fridge to get a drink, she could have turned around and seen me there naked with my hard cock but she didn’t. She got a drink and came over to the side of the island and we made small talk across the counter. She looked down at the magazine open before me and smiled.

“Watcha readin’?” Denise asked cheerfully.

“Ah, just something that was laying here.” I gulped as I said it. Had I been nabbed? Did she see me pumping my cock? Did she realize I was naked from the waste down behind the kitchen Island, a mere two feet from where she was standing? Would she tell the rest of the condo that she had caught me masturbating in the kitchen to pictures out of Harper’s Bazaar?

We made small talk for a few minutes. I had casually turned the pages of the magazine, noticing that Denise had noticed what I was looking at. I looked at her pretty face and noticed the slight wrinkles of her cute smile as she saw me turning the pages past pictures of pretty women.

“I’ve got to go back to bed.” She turned and put her glass in the sink. “Good night! See you tomorrow.”

Denise turned and walked toward the stairs. She had on a long nightie, one that a teen girl might wear to a slumber party. It showed off her slender, coltish legs. Her pretty bare feet padded along the floor, her red-painted toenails peeking out to me as her feet arched as she walked. My cock, which had never fully gone flaccid – I was nervous but still fairly aroused by all of this – was hardening back to full erection.

As Denise got to the bottom of the steps, she turned and said, with this WEG, “You can go back to doing what you were doing,” and giving a slight giggle, scampered up the steps.

She HAD seen me!!! I was at the same time horrified and thrilled. I love to masturbate and love knowing others know I do it! I love for them to see me. But as I said in the opening, I’m not out to offend unsuspecting people. I wasn’t trying to expose myself and my masturbation to my pretty friend Denise. I wasn’t sure how this would play out. Would she tell my wife I was downstairs beating my meat, instead of being upstairs fucking her? Would she announce it to the rest of the condo at breakfast in the morning?

As the next day dawned, nothing was out of the ordinary. Breakfast came and went. Denise was cheerful, conversation was normal and everyone in the condo went about the business of enjoying a wonderful ski weekend with friends. Cheryl, my wife, is a couple of notches below Denise and I in skiing ability, so Denise and I skied together most of the day while Cheryl went off with other friends.

It was a normal day skiing with my pal Denise. We followed each other through the trails at Seven Springs. I watched her pretty rear as she slalomed in front of me. Her sexy laugh and smile entertained me at lunch. The whole time, I wondered if she was thinking what I was thinking. Whenever she looked at me, was her mind filled with the image of near-naked me in the kitchen with my cock in my hand?

She’s never said anything more about catching me that night. She’s kind of like a sister figure but I always think of that time and masturbate to her. I masturbate to her anyway because she’s so darned cute and sex, but that episode in the ski condo always gets me even harder, always moaning Denise’s name when I masturbate to her.

I wonder what Denise does when she thinks about that ski weekend?:)~

Tuesday, January 17, 2017

Dr. Lindsey Doe and "Sexplanations"

When I was perusing the internet recently for information about masturbation, I came across (yes, quite literally! lol) the Youtube series "Sexplanations" with Dr. Lindsey Doe. Dr. Doe is a very cute 30-something sex educator who is cute as a button. Not only has she become a masturbation muse for me, her series has become must viewing. If you are interested in learning about human sexuality in a low-key, fun manner then watch "Sexplanations." (Of course, the hot linking feature on blogger is not working so you need to copy and paste the links!)


Of course, there are a three episodes about masturbation! I have to admit I have watched them several times and have masturbated each time! Although not trying to be titillating, Lindsey is so much fun to watch and so cute that I can't keep my hands off my cock! However, the information contained in the web series is quite serious and quite good. Dr. Doe often quotes stats and observations that come from respected sex researchers and explains things in a straightforward, comfortable manner. She also goes over the physiology of sexual function, helping us to understand why our bodies do what they do.

A mother of three, Dr. Doe has a BS in psychology From the University of Montana and a Masters Degree in Health and Human Performance from the same school. She received a PHD from Institute for Advanced Study of Human Sexuality in San Fransisco in 2007. For eight years, she taught a popular Human Sexuality course at the University of Montana until her adjunct professor position was cute for budgetary reasons. She still lectures on various college campuses and works almost full time on "Sexplanations," which updates about once per week.

The three episodes about masturbation are fun to watch and to masturbate to. I was kind of hoping she might address the issue of masturbation addiction, since many of us struggle with addiction. She does briefly touch on sexual dependency in a video about the affects of porn, but ever so briefly.

Still, give Sexplanations a watch. There is also a companion Patreon site that has buttons for a Facebook page and Twitter account. https://www.patreon.com/sexplanations

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

Jerk Off Challenges on YouTube!

A Jerk Off Challenge for Taylor Swift?

(I can't get the links to work here, so copy and paste!)

I’m not exactly sure what the “challenge” is, but a number of Youtube accounts have popped up in recent months that feature videos labeled “Jerk Off Challenge”, featuring video of hot gals that many of us masturbate to. I love to masturbate to Taylor Swift, and stumbled across this phonomena while perusing for some sexy shots of the cute Ms. Swift. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Slc-Liaeio

It is exciting to see such a mainstream social media outlet hosting videos of this nature. While the posters are careful to avoid using the word “masturbation,” that is clearly what they are openly promoting.

Here is a video for the sexy redhead Jessica Chastain: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n9iTmNw73mM&spfreload=5

The following Youtube account, https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCTvAFdF09hFYPrgTjwPb56A , makes a reference to “taking your time” while watching the videos. I assume that means how quickly you cum or how long you last. This channel also advertises you can follow them on Twitter and Instagram.

As someone who loves to masturbate and wants to “normalize” attitudes about masturbation, I find this approach refreshing. I just imagine how many other guys (and some girls) are out there masturbating to something so mainstream along with me, and it makes me harder and makes my masturbation so much more enjoyable. Just google “jerkoff” (or jerk off) challenge and you will find plenty of this material.

Since I started this post with Taylor Swift, I think I will continue my masturbation session of the delightfully pretty and leggy Taylor! Please join me!

Sunday, January 1, 2017

The Masturbator I Want To Be

Note: an earlier edit of this story appeared on onania.org/asm

I have reached a conundrum about my masturbation addiction. I need to NOT be an addict. My happiness and well-being depend on that.

However, I remember the sage thought of “once an addict, always an addict,” and realize you can’t just stop being addicted to something. Alcoholics always call themselves “recovering” addicts, even though they may not have had a drop in years.

Perhaps like you, I spend too much time masturbating. That is time taken away from my family, from my work, from other pursuits that I enjoy wholly. I sometime begin masturbating in the morning and continue for most of the day. I don’t go to my office until late because that rush of dopamine is coursing through my body, making me crave it more. Then I am lost in that masturbator’s fog the rest of the day. Often, once I start, I can’t stop, and that is one of the true measure’s of an addict. I’ve lost a job mainly because of my masturbation addiction, wasted time, wasted money, and have threatened my business because I can’t stay away from my cock.
I need to change something, but this is difficult. Like any addiction, you just can’t turn this on and off.

I joined Your Brain Rebalanced and have found that to be helpful in focusing on what I need to focus on. Most of the other members there are totally anti-masturbation in any form. For an addict, this may be the only real path to take to gain control over their lives.

But here is my conundrum: I LOVE BEING a masturbator. It has become a part of my identity. It defines my sexuality, A masturbator is who I am.

How do I reconcile these competing issues? Perhaps by not letting them compete.

I’ve started reading a book entitled “The Slight Edge.” It is a good guide to helping someone focus on what’s important and improving their lives. “The Slight Edge” will not give you that trick or secret get-rich-quick formula to financial success. It will help you form a frame-of-mind to get yourself on track to achieve your life’s goals and be happy.

For a while I was trying to “beat masturbation.” What I was doing was beating myself up, and I was still beating my cock a lot. Going “cold turkey” wasn’t working for me. The urge to masturbate was too great, and although I would go wank free for a week or two at a time, I would always have this devastating “rebound” that would have me masturbating almost constantly for days at a time.

Most importantly, during these periods of no masturbation I felt like a part of me was missing.

So, I’m taking a different approach. Following some tips from “The Slight Edge,” I am making adjustments in my life. Things that lead me to stay at the computer for hours and hours pleasuring my cock, I am staying away from. Small things that lead to my overall happiness and financial well-being are important to me now in being a whole person.

And I am not going to stop being a masturbator.

I will define “masturbator” as someone who recognizes solo-sexual pursuits as socially acceptable and enjoyable, not something to be hidden and vilified. I love to masturbate and love sharing it with people. I have been outed to friends, acquaintances and business partners as a masturbator, and perhaps I’ve outed myself. I am not ashamed or embarrassed of what I am, and am proud to stand up and identify myself as a masturbator. In an age where gay and transgender people are standing up for who they are and their rights, this is only natural and right.

I’ll tell you a quick story. I won’t go into the gory details. Those of you who have read my earlier post, "Cammie, My Masturbation Muse...", have learned of this incident and more.

This woman (Cammie), who I thought was a friend of mine, decided to “out me” as a masturbator. She recognized me on-line at a photo sharing site where I post pictures of myself masturbating. I had posted pictures of a lot of female friends and other people I masturbate over, including this person. Nothing graphic but if you were one of my family contacts and saw the pics of me jacking off, you came away with the impression that I was masturbating to everyone on my photo stream. This woman contacted many, if not all, of the women I had posted and told them I had a private area with my masturbation pics, etc., and informed them about what I was doing over their pictures!

Of course, it was very fuzzy about how she came upon this knowledge in the first place. Perhaps she is an addicted masturbator herself, and was cruising masturbation sites when she spotted me. Very curious. ( I had always thought this woman had some weird sexual things going on in the first place. Whole different story for another time.)

Anyway, most of the people she contacted either thought she was a kook or they just plain weren’t bothered by it. Except for one other person, those that were bothered just kept it to themselves. Gradually, things filtered back to me and I realized a large number of people had heard from this woman and a few had ventured forth and found my pictures. Only one person ever said anything direct to me about my masturbation pictures; I will call her “Joy” for purposes of this article.

“Joy” is in her mid 50’s, about 5’7″, blonde, cute smile, blue eyes, nice legs and feet and ass that I LOVE to masturbate over. Four summers ago when this crap was going down, Joy and I were somewhere shooting video. During a lull while I was messing with the camera, she looks at me and smiles and says, “Hey, you really need a new camera for your porn pictures!”

I said, “What do you mean, my porn pictures?” Of course, I instantly knew what she was talking about. I felt my face turning red, but played dumb.

“You know, the pictures of you doing your thing!” With that, she made a hand-motion like a hand going up and down on a cock! She had this beautiful wide smile and a gleam in her eye.

I nearly fucking fell over, but continued to play dumb and treated it as if she was playing a joke.

“Oh yeah, my porn pictures!” I rolled my eyes like the whole thing was a gag. “The pictures really are terrible aren’t they? I do need a new camera for those.”

I felt myself blushing even more.

A few other people were within earshot and just looked at us like we must have had some inside joke among friends.

At the same time I was embarrassed in front of Joy, I was thrilled that she had seen the pics of me masturbating and was OK with it. And she apparently was also OK with the fact her pics were on my personal photo account, and probably figured it added up to me masturbating to her (which of course I do. A lot!).

She’s never said anything more to me about it.

More than six years later she is still a friend, although I don’t see her as often. I saw her over the summer at this large sporting event where we both worked. She came over to talk, and we stood and talked and laughed for a while. I gazed into her pretty blue eyes thinking these are the same eyes that were wide and disbelieving when she found my masturbation pics online. The same eyes that saw my hand on my cock and my cum shooting, then dripping down my fingers. The same eyes that read my captions about how much I masturbate, how I love to masturbate, and how I love to masturbate to women with nice legs and smiles and sexy feet and asses! The same eyes that saw her pictures in the G-rated part of my account and realized: He masturbates to ME! The eyes of the same woman who let me know she saw the pictures, but then is still my friend.

As weird as this may sound to some, seeing Joy and realizing that she and so many others know how much of a masturbator I am is a great turn-on for me and is very appealing. Most of these people have not changed the way they treat me. If they did, they would have to justify why they were curious enough to look for my masturbation pictures, and might have to reveal that they, too, masturbate and enjoy it. Perhaps this whole chain of events is helping them feel more comfortable with themselves.

So, I have decided I need to control my addiction. That will be how I beat it; not by “curing” myself by stopping all masturbation, but by finding an appropriate space for it in the rest of my life. From now on, I will not spend hours every day in front of a computer or lost in fantasy while playing with my cock. I will occasionally enjoy this wonderful sexual act, and will do it with others as well as post here and elsewhere about my experience. It will be an experience that will enrich my life and make me complete, not drag me down a path to self-destruction. I want to help others do the same.

That is the masturbator I want to be and will be,

I am a masturbator and I love it!